battling the time or battling the resistance?

since you can’t battle the time ever – better you can try to battle but you can’t ever win, it is probably more precise when I say I am currently battling with my resistance and my inner blockades.

Julia Cameron speaks about being blocked is one of the most difficult things to first recognize and secondly to over come.

It is easy for me to say, to feel and even more to belief that I don’t have time to write and to be creative. But actually what the difficulty is, is to allow myself to put my energy in a different or in an additional direction to work. Often I am so afraid about being too tired the next day that I pressure myself to conserve the little energy I have left in the evening for the next day at work.

I don’t think I am a workaholic and yet it seems to be kind of strange that I let work overrule everything else, even the time which is free of working hours.

So could it than be, that the tiredness is just the disguise of my workaholism which  tries to keep as much energy for itself, without sharing the time and energy for the other creative me?

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